India has the most beautiful culture, the bright coloured majestic clothing, the entrancing music, the incredible spicy food and the variety of religions, to name just a few elements. Each day I became more accustomed to the wonders around me, each day I learnt more about the countries traditions and diverse people. And each day I wished more and more that didn’t have to return back to England.
I have been back from Tamil Nadu, India for just under a month now and it's frightening how quickly one can adapt back to normal life. As soon as I returned I was straight in the warm shower and enjoying the comfort of my cosy bed. India feels like a distant memory, but at the same time the incredible people I met and the places I visited will always have a place in my heart. Every experience I had, each person I met has made me who I am now and will continue to shape the person I become.
Recently I have started an internship in Oxford for Oxfam and as a result of that I have been spending a large amount of my time travelling and on the train. I have always found train journeys exciting and peaceful. I moment in the day to think about my thoughts and others. I chance to breathe. This week as I sat watching the world rush past me in my little carriage I wrote about India. I have been feeling so guilty for not struggling to come back to my life in England. In some horrendous ways it feels as though I could have never actually been away at all.
It is very easy to become so self centred and focused on our own lives. Since I have returned this is something I notice more around me in others. We are all so busy, always on the go, rushing around for our lives. And I fear that I too may have succumb to this. I have focused on my next steps, seeing friends and family. For me my life has changed, did it for those I left behind?
It's so strange being back,
India now apart of me,
No more am I apart of it.
I want to think of them always,
but I don't.
I simply get one with my life,
I move on to my future.
What does their future hold?
Memories of laughter and happiness.
That's not fair though
My life has changed
I travel onwards and upwards
While Pavi waits to be married.
Sasi is desperately trying to find a job
and Presanth and Naveen hang around,
hoping...
Facebook can keep us connected,
as far as emojis and Sapt tan la's can go
We say friends always but is that a friendship?
I wish we could be together properly
without social media and the rest of the globe I our way.
It's not a fair life!
I get the chance to explore and discover, why not them too.
We are the same, we are equal.
Maybe if everyone who read this could just take a few moments out of their day to think about somebody else, how our actions never simply affect just ourselves and how so many lives all over this world need to be supported. I will be trying my best to continue using my train journeys to write and think about the world, especially those in India who I met and love very dearly.It can start with a thought. A little prayer and wish for others.
Stay Beautiful,
Zsofia xxxx
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